Did you ever have one of those dreams where you wake up mad at somebody because of what they did in the dream? It's hard to shake that feeling off right away, and you wonder if there's some deep hidden message or an unresolved issue you need to address. Well, that's the way I felt this morning. Let me back up a bit, to tell you that I've been sick over the past four days and am fully aware that the medications could be one of the culprits in this story, but I believe I found a message in it all, anyway.
My dream was simple. My husband, son and I were away at a friend's house. After getting ready for bed, he announces that he put the bags in the trunk of the car to prepare for travelling the next day. I tried to explain to him that we needed to get things out of them in the morning. (A toothbrush, change of clothes, etc.) I needed the bag and he said it wasn't needed. I was getting angry at him. He wouldn't listen to my explanation of needing items and not feeling safe going outside in my PJ's to get what we needed. I felt like he was unreasonable, didn't think about protecting me and keeping me safe. I felt the anger and pain of him shutting me off and not listening no matter what. I had gotten mad in the dream.
When I woke up, I felt such rage over the incident. How could he not see the pain? Crazy, right?
but then...I was faced with this thought...it's not about you...stop and see it from His eyes. It was awesome! I saw the whole 360 of it all. He showed me that he was caring for me and just did his best at cutting back travel time. He showed me that my words can really cut to the bone. And most importantly he showed me that perception isn't everything. We often see reality through the skewed glasses of our own issues. Our reality often isn't THE reality. Lord, help me to see with your eyes and not judge each action as though I was the center of the universe.
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